I don't put too many journals but just kind feel like I guess venting. Last couple days have been kind hell and has been getting harder and harder to find a reason to live. Just feels like everyone I know is leaving or has just straight up disappeared. When I try to contact them they either give no replys or just a few before disappearing. I understand being busy with real life but is it really that hard to send even a three word reply. Sorry for bothering anyone with my thoughts hope everyone out there has a merry Christmas or a happy Hanukkah or happy whatever you celebrate.